TMZ obtained the suicide note written by the mixed martial artist who brutally attacked and sexually assaulted his ex-girlfriend late last month.
In the note, War Machine — born Jonathan Koppenhaver — apologized to his friends and family for the violent beating and sexual assault of Christy Mack. He begins with a quotation from the German philosopher Friedrich Nietzsche — “to die proudly when it is no longer possible to live proudly” — before bragging that despite the fact that he’s dead, he “experienced more in my short life than 5 avg. men combined.”
War Machine then tells the woman he’s charged with having beaten and raped, “I loved you more than freedom,” and that he forgives her for having “cheated” on him after they had broken up. “I forgive you,” he wrote, “please forgive me.”
Using language associated with the Men’s Rights Movement, he implores his brother to “keep alpha male shit alive.” He tells his friends he loves them, writing “may my strength be with you.”
All of this sharing of his strength and Men’s Rights bromides, however, left War Machine “crying like a lil’ bitch.” The case against him, he wrote, is “f*cking ridiculous.”
“They wanna charge me with battery and [domestic violence]? Fine, do it, but don’t railroad me with B.S. fantasy charges like: Rape! Attempted murder! Kidnapping! And Burglary!” he wrote. “It’s making it impossible for for justice.”
“I’m a good person with a huge heart,” he continued, “and everyone who knows me know that, especially Christy,” whose face he broke, teeth he knocked out, and liver ruptured — and who he suggested will be pressured by “her scumbag agent” to testify against him for money.
He concluded his portion of the letter by asking its intended recipients “to remember me for my times of strength,” and noting that “society has killed men, I was never meant to live in this era anyway. Follow your dreams and think for yourselves.”
War Machine signed off with another quote from Nietzsche, “verily, I often laugh at the weaklings who think themselves good because they have no claws.”
He has been in medical isolation on suicide watch since he attempted to take his own life, and is due in court for a preliminary hearing on the 32 charges against him on November 14, 2014.
Watch a report on his attempted suicide via KTNV below.